every beat of my heart

Friday, August 29, 2008 @9:21 PM

I can't believe im back here posting again. after like what 6 months? Has to be a record for me. Anyway most of the time I use facebook these days. Just finished watching dgrayman 98. Really Nice. At least cheered me up a little. Today was a really emo day for me. I shouldn't have gone back Tao Nan. I knew she would be there, but i wanted to see her so badly. After rushing back from sch, i did think about her, but it didnt hurt. But after I saw her, gosh the memories started pouring in. So many things that I want to remember but at the same time cause me so much pain. So actually while the guys kept talking about some weird gay paedo called the Bishan Gay I was pretty much just looking at 2 really small guys playing badminton, and once in a while looking over at her. Sigh. And i thought my feelings had died. Sometimes its just so complicated and I cant explain. I guess its a love-hate relationship, cos I miss her so much yeah sometimes I hate her for hurting me so much. In the end it was just the guys together, as I had expected earlier on, and Mr Trevor Tan force me go Parkway la. Its like so boring please lor. So we did alot of aimless walking, where i was still rather sad la. Only Trevor actually had something to do there, which was to buy his CD and gummies from Mini Toons (I like the stone chocs). Me, Tingwei, Ping and Hong were pretty much forced to follow him. Though overall it was the usual boring/stone gthrng glad I bumped into a few old friends la. Its really nice when you go back 3 years later and ppl actually still rmbr you. Haha. Can tell Im crapping right. its like just posting for the sake of posting. Haha :P